He Thought of Me In The Garden of Gethsemane

Yeah, oops! It's been awhile since I have written.  I will be honest, I sort of haven't wanted to because I think, no one reads it...so why bother?  Oh-well.  It's a good outlet for me and something I enjoy.  So I guess if nothing else, it's for me. :)

So I have fallen off the "no sugar" wagon.  Whenever Aunt Flow decides to visit every. single. month (can you tell I don't like her?), I tend to want to eat...SUGAR!!!!  It's awful and I have zero self control.  None.  But I am determined to get back on track.  After Aunt Flow is finished visiting.  Which, coincidentally, happens to be going on right now. :P

I have mentioned before that I really don't like what I see in the mirror.  I like from the neck up...that part is ok, but not the rest.  It's sad to say, but it's true.  I have THE most amazing husband I could EVER ask for.  He is so wonderful in so many ways, but one of those ways is he always tells me I am beautiful.  He is so sincere and true and desires more than anything for me to see what he sees.  I love him for that.  And I know that is why I was blessed with my dear, sweet Casey.  He helps in so many ways, he will never know.  He means the world to me!

I am working on it and one day will be there!  I just don't want my darling girl (and any other girls we may have) to ever view her body the way I have always viewed mine.  It's not fun, nor is it fair.  I want her to be confident in her own skin, to be happy to be who she is no matter her size!!!  But she won't be able to really do that unless she has a mommy to show her how to do so.  And I not only need to do that for her, but for me!

I know I can do anything with the help of my loving Heavenly Father and dear Savior.  Isn't that what the Atonement is all about anyway?  To help us overcome our trials and shortcomings?  This has been a real struggle all my life.  But I know that only through the Atonement of my Savior that I can overcome this.  Thank heaven for our beautiful Savior's sacrifice.  I have a very strong testimony of the Atonement.  I know it is real.  I know that it is powerful.  I know Jesus Christ knows me, He knows every single pain and sorrow I have ever experienced and ever will experience, because He himself experienced it.  I know He thought of me, little ol' me, as He bled from every pore.  I wasn't just a passing thought.  He really, really thought of me.  This is something I have come to know, without a single, solitary doubt.  I don't comprehend how He did it, but I don't need to.  I just know, through the witness of the Holy Ghost, that He did.  And I know He did it for every single person.  You, too, were not just a passing thought.